Those who have been to this page and read the evil nightmare that Mr Nick Deen put me through will see that I have now deleted the whole story. That chapter of my life and the regret that goes with it is firmly closed, because you see on the 30th of December 2009, I got married to the right and perfect man that is Tim Roebuck, so am now Mrs Nikki Roebuck, and very proud to be.

Tim is quite simply the most caring and generous man there is. Since we first became a couple, we have never argued or fallen out about anything, sure we have disagreements, but they never last and we both say sorry very quickly or just start laughing at each other. It's hard to be mad when you are laughing :)

He has stood by me right from the beginning, been willing to share in my world of dogs and helped me do the things I love, in return I have tried to do the same for him, but he picked a really expensive hobby, motor racing and I still waiting to see him behind the wheel of the Midget, competing, come on Tim!! His support though, became even more critical when I was first diagnosed with cancer in March 2007, we made decisions together on how to go forward and he helped me cope with both the mental and physical scars that I was left with. We became stronger, closer and more determined to treasure what we had. In October 2008, the cancer came back, and in December we were told it was incurable. No hope.

But hope is something neither of us was willing to give up and despite the continuous chemotheraphy treatments I have undergone since then, the fear of what is to come, the physical difficulties that where now mine, we continued, and we became still stronger together. In March 2009, Tim got down on one knee, under the Aurora Borealis, in Iceland in -20 degrees and asked me to become his wife. He made me so happy at that moment, I cannot even put it into words. The subsequent difficulties we encountered in trying to get my divorce through were horrific, but again, he was the quiet and constant support for me, as we battled to get it through.

Now we are married, as it should be, husband and wife for two souls who have always been destined for each other, but just got a little lost along the way until that fateful day we worked on a project together.

We both intend to treasure and enjoy every moment of life I have left, do the things we love to do and simply be together as we should, as normal as we can be, for as long as we can be.

Thank you Tim, for being in my life, for becoming my husband, for giving me the strength to keep fighting every single day. I love you much more than the those words can convey, but they are all I have... so... I love you Tim.

 

To my Mum who has also been my rock and support, thank you for all you have done for me, no one could ask for a better Mum than you and I am blessed that you are mine. I love you so very much.

To Marie Claire, thank you for being willing to take on Jahera in partnership with me, it makes me so happy to know it will continue under your guidence into the future. Thank you so much and love you too mate.

To all the wonderful people in my life, who have been there for me throughout all this, who have supported me, smiled with me, laughed with me and cried with me, thank you all too. I am truly blessed to share my life with each and every one of you.

There is so much I want to say, but I just can't find the words right now.

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